Yaya decided to extend her vacation. She said her mother is sick and she needs to look after her three children. I can’t do anything but allow her. She often speaks of her children to me and I feel for her. What is one month compared to 11 months away from them?
That means two things: Lucas will stay with Mama or I take another long leave and take care of him. As much as I want to do the latter, I do not have the luxury to do so. Unfortunately, I don’t hold my own time now unlike then when I was in Marketing. So yesterday we brought the Little Jedi back to Cavite for another week (or maybe even longer). I am just grateful my mom will be able to look after him even if she is still working. I have to admit, she is very happy and willing to take care of Lucas especially now that he’s more adorable than ever. I haven’t even posted about his stay with Mama and how I survived it (or not), and now he’s back there.
There’s just one problem: I miss him so much more now than the last time he stayed there for a week because we spent a lot of time together for the past week. I was able to watch over him and spend a full 24 hours for seven days and appreciate his being a two year old more. I don’t think I will be able to visit him also this week because my schedule is full with trainings to run. Sigh. I am trying my best not to cry.
When I got home from Cavite yesterday I really felt sad unlike last time. Like really sad. I immediately miss his smile, his endless counting, his non-stop running, his funny dance. I am trying to distract myself from thinking about him more also. It’s weird but every time I see his things especially those that we’ve used a lot during my sabbatical, I think of him. Hay. If I can only be a SAHM, I would. Calling other mommies (Mars, Maqui, Faye, and all others) to advice how to survive this longingness for the little one.